I Have A Testimony

About 3 years ago, one way or the other, I found myself alone for some time.

Away from home, away from friends, and generally away from what I knew comfort to be.

I was alone and, for some reason, instead of spending my time wallowing in self-pity, watching movies, wasting time, and scrolling through social media posts like I would usually do, I found myself seeking:

Seeking change, seeking peace, seeking healing, seeking a miracle, seeking rest. I was too stressed and tired. Too many things were not going as I had hoped. My hope seemed deferred, and my heart was sick.

Sick and tired of one disappointment after another, one negative after another. When will this positive appear? Is it when I am old and grey, or was this not for me? My mind wandered around from one negative thought to another, all the while filling me with more doubt than the faith I needed. But I never stopped seeking and, thankfully, seeking from God rather than from man led to my testimonies.

My testimonies began with a closeness to God like never before.

In my solitude and search, God led me to key scriptures; the Holy Spirit gave me a deeper understanding of these scriptures, and the more I read, the more I was eager to know more.

During this time, I found myself reading my Bible, praying, and generally spending time with God more than I had ever done before.

And gradually I, who didn’t even understand what it meant to hear from God, started hearing as God spoke to me.

He prompted me about my life as I read my Bible, during worship, in my dreams as I slept, and even during random activities during the day.

It was very surreal to realize how close God could be when we drew closer to Him.

God always speaks to us, but if we are not close, or if we don’t quiet the noise, we might not hear.

There is also no qualification to hear from God other than the eagerness and closeness to Him, and I am proof of that.

The more we spend time with God, the more we hear from Him, and as we obey, the more we are led by Him.

For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God.

I still strive to spend time with Him because I want to be led by Him.

This realisation led me to a place of surrender and rest in God.

At a time when I should have been more frustrated than ever,

I was now certain that no matter what happened in my life, God always had me.

He loved me and had my best interests at heart.

I was at a point where I told God that I didn’t want my will or what I wanted anymore.

I just wanted His will for my life and family. I wanted His plan for my life and family.

And I wasn’t going to hold on to my so-called expectations or plans anymore.

I released whatever load or burden I was carrying, and I truly felt lighter.

With this release and surrender came rest and peace because why was I fighting and stressing when I had God in my corner?

Surrendering and letting go led to my other testimony.

God deals with all of us differently, and this was very different from what I expected.

One evening, after my usual time spent with God, I fell asleep and had a dream.

I generally didn’t take some of my dreams seriously,

But this was one dream I had to pay attention to because it was clearly a message from God.

I reached out to the people I saw in my dream the following day and told them about my dream.

I told them about how we needed to start praying together on what we were seeking.

And in obedience, we all agreed on times and dates to start praying, not knowing where this was going to lead us.

But we had faith and obeyed because really, what choice did we have?

Our only option was God, and we knew He was more than capable. If He said it, we would obey.

Week by week, praying about this one specific thing as led by the Holy Spirit and trusting God, we experienced double miracles at God’s appointed time.

Matthew 7:7 became extremely real to us. The floodgates were open, and oh, what blessings it brought.

One of us, who had been praying and trusting God for the fruit of the womb for over 4 years with doctors having their share of things to say, gave a testimony of conception about three months into the prayers.

I, who was also trusting God after seasons of disappointment, conceived barely a month after their conception.

It was as if this was planned, but really, which human being can plan this?

This was all by the power and leading of God, through a group of people praying together in obedience and with faith.

But we are not mere people. We are heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ.

The same spirit that raised Jesus from the dead resides in us.

Therefore, when led by the Spirit of God, everything is possible.

My testimony does not end with the conception.

Just around that same time, God showed us what His name Jireh meant.

He provided a significant change in our careers in ways that no human being could.

For our pregnancies, we all hear stories about people’s pregnancies,

How people lose their lives and babies during pregnancies,

How there can be so many different types of complications during the pregnancy and delivery.

But by God’s grace, our pregnancies went as smoothly as they could possibly go, and the same for our deliveries.

God filled us with so much confidence during this period because we knew that He started everything and was going to see us safely through.

It’s been one year since the deliveries of our beautiful children, and God has been faithful and continues to be. God is Good!

We overcame by the blood of the lamb and the words of our testimonies, and we sealed this testimony with the blood of Jesus.

Amen!

This is not fiction. This actually happened. I share this testimony to express my immense gratitude to God and to encourage everyone to trust God for one breakthrough or another. You might or might not be seeking the fruit of the womb; it might be your health, your job, your marriage, or you’re seeking peace and rest. Please be encouraged that God wants all these for us because He loves us and always has our best interests at heart. As we draw closer to Him, He will reveal deeper things to us, and as we obey Him, He will direct our lives and lead us to the purpose, peace, and blessings He has pre-ordained for us. Don’t give up on God because He won’t give up on you.

Scriptures:

Proverbs 13:12; 1 Kings 19:11-13; Romans 8:14; Romans 8:17; Romans 6:10-11