I Have A Testimony

About 3 years ago, one way or the other, I found myself alone for some time

Away from home, away from friends and generally away from what I knew comfort to be

I was alone and for some reason, instead of spending my time wallowing in self pity, watching movies, wasting the time and scrolling through social media posts like I would usually do, I found myself seeking

Seeking change, seeking peace, seeking healing, seeking a miracle, seeking rest

I was too stressed and tired. Too many things were not going as I had hoped

My hope seemed deferred, and my heart was sick

Sick and tired of one disappointment after the other, one negative after the other

When will this positive appear, is it when I am old and grey, or this was not for me?

My mind wondered around from one negative thought to the other, all the while filling me with more doubt than the faith I needed

But I never stopped seeking and thankfully seeking from God rather than from man led to my testimonies

My testimonies start with a closeness to God like never before

In my solitude and search, God led me to key scriptures; the Holy Spirit gave me a deeper understanding of these scriptures and the more I read, the more I was eager to know more.

During this time, I found myself reading my Bible, praying and generally spending time with God more than I had ever done before

And gradually I, who didn’t even understand what it meant to hear from God started hearing as God spoke to me

He prompted me about my life as I read my Bible, during worship, in my dreams as I slept and even during random activities during the day.

It was very surreal to realise how close God could be when we drew closer to Him

God always speaks to us but if we are not close, or we if don’t quite the noise, we might not hear

There is also no qualification to hear from God other than the eagerness and closeness to Him and I am proof of that

The more we spend time with God, the more we hear from Him and as we obey, the more we are led by Him.

For all who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God

I still strive to spend time with Him because I want to be led by Him.

This realisation really led me to a place of surrender and rest in God

At a time when I should have been more frustrated than ever

I was now certain that no matter what happened in my life, God always had me.

He loved me and had my best interest at heart

I was at a point where I told God, that I didn’t want my will or what I wanted anymore.

I just wanted His will for my life and family. I wanted His plan for my life and family

And I wasn’t going to hold on to my so-called expectations or plans anymore.

I released what ever load or burden I was carrying and I truly felt lighter

With this release and surrender came rest and peace because why was I fighting and stressing when I had God in my corner

Surrendering and letting go led to my other testimony

God deals with all of us differently and this was very different from what I expected

One evening after my usual time spent with God I fell asleep and had a dream

I generally didn’t take some of my dreams seriously

But this was one dream, I had to pay attention to because it was clearly a message from God

I reached out to the people I saw in my dream the following day and told them about my dream

I told them about how we needed to start praying together on what we were seeking

And in obedience, we all agreed times and dates to start praying not knowing where this was going to lead us

But we had faith and obeyed because really what choice did we have

Our only option was God, and we knew He was more than capable. If He said it, we would obey

Week by week, praying about this one specific thing as led by the Holy Spirit and trusting God, we experienced double miracles at God’s appointed time

Matthew 7:7 became extremely real to us. The floodgates were open and oh what blessings it brought

One of us who had been praying and trusting God for the fruit of the womb for over 4 years with doctors having their own share of things to say, gave a testimony of conception about three months into the prayers.

I, who was also trusting God after seasons of disappointment conceived barely a month after their conception.

It was as if this was planned but really which human being can plan this.

This was all by the power and leading of God, through a group of people praying together in obedience and with faith.

But we are not mere people. We are heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ

The same spirit that raised Jesus from the dead resides in us

Therefore, when lead by the spirit of God, everything is possible.

My testimony does not end with the conception

Just around that same time, God showed us what His name Jireh meant

He provided a significant change in  our careers in ways that no human being could

For our pregnancies, we all hear stories about people’s pregnancies

How people lose their lives and babies during pregnancies

How there can be so many different types of complications during the pregnancy and delivery.

But by God’s grace, our pregnancies went as smoothly as it could possibly be and same for our deliveries.

God filled us with so much confidence during this period because we knew that He started everything and was going to see us safely through.

It’s been one year after the deliveries to our beautiful children and God has been faithful and continues to be. God is Good!

We overcame by the blood of the lamb and the words of our testimonies, and we seal this testimony with the blood of Jesus.

Amen!

This is not fiction. This actually happened. I share this testimony to express my immense gratitude to God and to encourage everyone trusting God for one breakthrough or the other. You might or might not be seeking the fruit of the womb, it might be your health, or your job or your marriage or you’re seeking peace and rest. Please be encouraged that God wants all these for us because He loves us and always has our best interest at heart. As we draw closer to Him, He will reveal deeper things to us and as we obey Him, He will direct our lives and lead us to the purpose, peace and  blessings He has pre-ordained for us. Don’t give up on God because He won’t give up on you.

Scriptures:

Proverbs 13:12; 1 Kings 19:11-13; Romans 8:14; Romans 8:17; Romans 6:10-11